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Remember in elementary school when all your little friends would come up to you, tickle your knee, and tease you that you were boy crazy? I tried to fight it, but there isn’t any amount of kicking or struggling that will ease my ticklishness. I wasn’t boy crazy. I didn’t have my first crush until fifth grade, and at that point, other kids have stopped tickling your knee. The new approach is much more direct: circle whether or not you like me. Please.
Until you’re ripe. It’s a high school party and we’re gathered around in a circle. Sippin’ on Gin and Juice. There’s a coffee table in the middle where everyone is putting his/her bud lights and cranberry vodkas. I don’t remember what we’re playing, but some sort of card game. I’m sitting next to one of the hottest guys at the party. I have a very specific type and he fits it to a t! He notices me. I have a boyfriend…I don’t tell him that. We start making eye contact. Subtle. We start talking, and then he tickles my knee. “It’s your turn,” he says. Did anyone see that? I have chills running up and down my spine, and I have to pretend like nothing happened. I can still feel the specific area where his hand massaged my knee. I can’t believe my body reacted this way, doesn’t it know that I’m off limits?
I can’t get the incident out of my mind, and so I ask my friend about it on the drive home, “He touched my knee.”
“And?”
“Well, that’s it…maybe you had to be there.”
Maybe. A couple of years later, after my boyfriend and I had broken up, I went to a party at the knee rubber’s house. He didn’t remember me. He pulled the same move – grabbing my knee, and again gave my body the most intense rushes. We ended up sleeping together. Maybe I am boy crazy after all.
This is essentially what sexuality, in the sexy sense, is all about- getting those surprising rushes and feeling desire. Is sexuality decided by these primal urges? Or is it possible to just ignore them?
mvcarter 1/11/2008
I really enjoyed reading your work as I was reading through it I was brought back to the times you described. The part about circle weather you like me or not gave me such a distinct feeling of being back in elementary and middle school where the notes we passed always ended in that question. The memories you chose to string together work so well to lead up to your ending. You use great descriptions I felt like I might have been there at the party watching as the events you described unfolded. I like how you just chose to end it abruptly and relate your final sentence back to the description of when you were a child it works really well.
hclairmont 1/11/2008

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Typical High School Party (Not me, I found this on google)  
 

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